Saturday, 23 February 2008

More Quitting News

I haven't tried the patches again, but I have been cutting down on the amount I smoke from my previous 10-12 a day. I smoked 7 on Monday, 7 on Tuesday, 5 on Wednesday, 6 on Thursday and 7 today.
Since I'm finding that I'm managing fine with smoking less, the thought of completely quitting isn't scaring me as much.

In other news, I've been having certain... 'signs' that lead me to think that I'm ovulating. Much as I want to, I can't take advantage of that at the moment, but it's nice to know that things seem functional.

Dammit, I want to start trying now...

Friday, 15 February 2008

Patch Problems

Ok, the patches didn't work so well...
The instructions say to start with the 'stage 1' patch, and stay with that for eight weeks. However, there's a problem with that. I smoke, usually, about 10 cigarettes a day, totalling 8mg of nicotine. The stage 1 patches contain 15mg released over 16 hours.
After a couple of hours wearing the patch I was light-headed, nauseous and feeling generally horrible. I've now bought the stage 2 patches, which have only 10mg.
I know that you're meant to set a quit date, on which day you get rid of all your cigarettes, lighters, etc. but the idea of making that much of a change in one go freaks me out.
What I'm going to try is putting the patch on in the afternoon, so I only have to not smoke for a few hours at first, during a time when I'm often busy and distracted anyway.

Tuesday, 12 February 2008


Well, I'm wearing a patch just now - I put it on a few minutes ago. I feel so nervous about stopping smoking. I think that part of me doesn't want to stop. I've got my drawer of baby things, though, and I've been going to look at them to remind me of why I need to quit.
I didn't take the Pill last night either. I've got my period at the moment, so it seemed like a good time to stop, as I was going to stop at the end of this month anyway.

Monday, 11 February 2008

On Schedule

I suppose things are going to plan so far. I bought nicotine replacements patches today, and I'm going to try one when I get in from work tomorrow. I got a bit freaked out by the idea of stopping smoking - I don't really know why. I think it might be because 1) I don't like change (although, surprisingly, thinking about actually having a baby doesn't, and that's a big change) and 2) it makes me feel kind of rebellious, even though I know that smoking doesn't make me like that anyway. I'm rationalising it to myself by thinking that I only have to stop smoking while I'm pregnant and breastfeeding, so if I really want to I can start again after that, not that I think I will.
I think I'll stop taking the Pill now. I'm having a period at the moment, so I might as well.
I need to start exercising too. I'm really not happy with my body, and the idea of never looking good in a bikini is very depressing, so I thought that if I lose weight and get toned up before getting pregnant there might be some chance of not looking too bad after. Anyway, all those models, actresses etc manage to look good after having a baby. I know that they have nannies and personal trainers, but I figure that I can still do something.